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Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-07 01:55 am (UTC)Does everyone else recognize you, as..well you? Or are some people now insisting you are a teacher?
Ya think so? Cause...it just hurts soo much...I can understand him not believing me. But to see our family, and reject them all just because he saw that I was in it? Then trying to blame me for seeing them in the 1st place? That's low, even for him.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-07 04:31 am (UTC)Thanks. But I think I'll just stick to teaching karate.
I don't know yet. I guess I'll find out tomorrow.
One thing at a time. First, find out if his memories are back to normal.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-08 02:27 am (UTC)Still hurts like hell though...granted, getting shot by a cannon is worse but this isn't a day at the beach either.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-11 05:43 am (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-11 01:34 pm (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-11 02:11 pm (UTC)FEELING hurt. Not BEING hurt.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-11 06:44 pm (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-13 06:40 am (UTC)Feeling hurt is the emotional response. Being hurt is the incident that brings about the emotional response.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-13 03:45 pm (UTC)Being hurt creates the feeling of hurt? Even though feeling must have came 1st?
Sounds like a circle to me
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-15 01:03 am (UTC)There's the injury itself. And then there are the feelings about getting injured.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-15 01:12 am (UTC)There is the actual knife inside which of course is going to hurt. But then...what? Don't play with the knife in your guts?
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-17 02:15 am (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-17 03:05 am (UTC)Cause it would be REALLY EASY to just be mad instead!
But damn it, I know that doesn't work...Even if it keeps some of the pain away...
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-18 08:55 pm (UTC)That's basically my point.
Be aware of where your feelings are coming from and where they might lead you.
Because as bad as pain is, sometimes avoiding is it worse.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-18 10:59 pm (UTC)I've done nothing but run, and when the city was under attack, I tried to fight for once.
I was just as powerless then, as when everything else happened to me.
Derek disappears, I can't even have a conversation with him anymore.
The city is under attack, I just get in the way and got shot by a cannon for my trouble, endangering more people instead of saving them.
I lost a family, ran away from the police. I couldn't deal with my other one, so I ran away from that.
WHEN DOES THAT CHANGE!?
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-19 05:50 pm (UTC)so you got your ass kicked this time. fine. next time you'll be a bit better.
know your limits with your powers. know those limits, but push them.
it's okay to need help from other people. and it's okay to not be strong enough.
i'm a squshy baseline human. a shot from a cannon would kill me.
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-19 07:46 pm (UTC)No, it's not okay.
How is having to lean on other people okay at all!?
HELL! How is THIS OKAY!?
I survived that shot, cause someone else had to hold me and take the brunt of that shot for me!
Even though I screamed too...she had to hate me, some punk that wanted to be a hero and just got in the way and made her use her magic to protect me, when I was supposed to give her covering fire.
I NEED my magic to work! I can't afford to just be on the ground and just watch! Not again!
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-19 09:23 pm (UTC)[Tatsuo is about six seconds from finding Al and slapping him upside the head]
stop pitying yourself
it's disrespectful to yourself and disrespectful to anyone who fights with you
it's okay to lean on other people because WE. ARE. NOT. GODS.
we are human. even you lot with magic. we're human and thus we have weaknesses.
if you need your magic to work, THEN FIGURE OUT HOW IT WORKS.
until then, stay out of the fights if you're going to have this kind of attitude
can't afford to just be on the ground? you think those of us with no magic do nothing?
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-19 11:49 pm (UTC)IM TRYING AND IT FUCKING HURTS! ALL OF IT!
This FUCKING storm inside!
The gunshots that still ring even though I held the body a long time ago
These broken pieces that just keep falling through my fingers
Even with magic, I can't seem to put those pieces back together...
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-24 12:40 am (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-24 01:00 am (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-25 05:43 am (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-27 04:03 am (UTC)I'm alive, I have a family. Hell, even though I almost got eaten by a T-Rex(thank God for smarties) I'm pretty sure I don't wanna run from here.
So why do I still feel like at any moment I might need to jump ship? Isn't two years enough to settle in?
Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
Date: 2018-09-28 04:46 am (UTC)Sometimes, but not always. Feeling safe and 'settled in,' as you put it, is a very individual thing. It was a couple years before I really settled into the orphanage.
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Date: 2018-09-28 03:10 pm (UTC)Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm
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