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Albert Mathews

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Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[flametheif40]

IM TRYING AND IT FUCKING HURTS! ALL OF IT!

This FUCKING storm inside!
The gunshots that still ring even though I held the body a long time ago
These broken pieces that just keep falling through my fingers

Even with magic, I can't seem to put those pieces back together...

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[thisloveisjustice]

Al, you can't always put those pieces back together yourself. Sometimes you need help.

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[flametheif40]

I guess your right...but damn it why is this so hard?

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[thisloveisjustice]

Because trauma is never easy to deal with.

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[flametheif40]

Never sat down and thought of it as "trauma", just "crap that happens".

I'm alive, I have a family. Hell, even though I almost got eaten by a T-Rex(thank God for smarties) I'm pretty sure I don't wanna run from here.

So why do I still feel like at any moment I might need to jump ship? Isn't two years enough to settle in?

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[thisloveisjustice]

Sometimes, but not always. Feeling safe and 'settled in,' as you put it, is a very individual thing. It was a couple years before I really settled into the orphanage.

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[flametheif40]

Oh? So, taking a while isn't abnormal?

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[thisloveisjustice]

No, it's not. And you can't measure your own progress against someone else's.

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[flametheif40]

Oh...so, even if it's over something say...three or four years ago...it would still be okay?

The trama thing...and...I suppose my last family too, they...made things worse...

Re: 9/1, shortly after 9pm

[thisloveisjustice]

Yeah, it'd be okay, Al.

I'm sorry your last family was so shitty.